Progress, not perfection

It’s not unusuaL for god to wake me up at 3 a.m. on a regular basis. In my Alpha Female days, I would get so irritated by this. After all, I needed to get up early the next day and get things done. Waking up in the middle of the night meant that I was not going to get the rest I needed, and so I would toss and turn in my frustrated state, trying in vain to fall back asleep. Instead, I would lay there and go over my checklist. The wheels would spin, and I’d find myself adding more and more items to it.

As a Recovering Alpha Female, though, I’ve come to appreciate those 3 a.m. wakeup calls. God, the Universe, my highest self — whoever it is tapping me on the shoulder and whispering that I need to wake up now is really giving me the quiet time I need to hear my own intuition. So often, I find in the stillness of the night that there is some sort of thought flitting around that really deserves my attention and focus.

Now, when I wake up in the dark, I’m almost impatient to find out what it is. What are you trying to tell me? It may be necessary to take a breath and talk myself down so that I can have a little visit with God or whomever and hear my heart whisper. Lately, those wakeups have centered around how to share my journey with others so that they may embark on their own.

On one night in particular, awoken from my sleep, I stayed very still and waited for what would come. I had been constantly worrying about how best to communicate my story with others, and it seems that my subconscious had been working on the problem for me. The answer, and the generating force that led me to compiling these ah-ha’s, came in the form of a story of how this all began.

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